Suspend And Rest [on KS Friday]

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Kerri took a fall earlier this week and broke both of her wrists. For a professional pianist there are few injuries more debilitating and frightening. Needless to say, our world stopped. We’ve stepped out of time.

Judy once told me, after her husband suffered a terrible stroke and she became his full-time caregiver, that she could not think about tomorrow or even an hour ahead. The moment at hand, the task immediately before her, was all that existed. I understood in an abstract way what she was experiencing. The weight of presence. The unbearable lightness of presence.  All that exists is now. Today, I understand what Judy experienced beyond a simple abstract appreciation. At this point, there is no sense in thinking ahead.

A sip of coffee through a straw. Move the hair from her eyes. Help her sit up. There is the task at hand. That is all. And in “that is all” comes a great gift: instant perspective on what has actual importance and what does not. In these past several months everything has felt like a fight to swim upstream. Today, since Monday, there is no fight, there is only stream and it carries us where it will. We let go and are resting. A whole rest.

It is ironic to me that since her fall, in addition to the pain and the real fear of losing her capacity to play the piano [read: lose who she understands herself to be], we have laughed more in four days than in four months. We have let go. We look at what-this-time-last-week appeared to be so heavy with importance and merely shrug. Not important. It floats away. Or we float away from it. In this whole rest there is no capacity to push, no desire to paddle or resist. Suspended, we rest. We take this bite, sweet or savory, and that is all.

 

read Kerri’s blog post about WHOLE REST

 

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One Response

  1. Thanks for wiring about this. Big hugs to Kerri. I remember I couldn’t wait for my left arm cast to come off to see if I could type again.

    I didn’t see you mention about helping Kerri go to the bathroom. That was Jamie’s “favorite” presence gift.

    🌈🎃

    On Fri, Jan 31, 2020 at 9:38 AM The Direction of Intention wrote:

    > davidrobinsoncreative posted: ” Kerri took a fall earlier this week and > broke both of her wrists. For a professional pianist there are few injuries > more debilitating and frightening. Needless to say, our world stopped. > We’ve stepped out of time. Judy once told me, after her husband s” >

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